Saturday, March 28, 2009

Baby Monster

MMM... nam.. nam! So for those of you who may care to know but have yet to figure out. I am baby hungry. I have been wanting to get pregnant very, very badly for several months now. But we seriously just can't afford it. Stupid husband going to stupid school. We are trying to find a way, so for anyone who tries to tell me there is always a way and that we are being selfish. Believe it or not, I have hear that. Stupid people with there stupid wrong opinions. I managed to procure a self-insurance plan since I don't have any through work, and student insurance is ridiculous. But my maternity deductible is $6500!!!! Jeez, that's like 1/4 of our yearly income. Boo! I'm trying to be good and not do it medicaid style, I don't like mooching, but it might come to some sort of secondary help from them. And then the other big sacrifice is we are moving in with my parents in two months. If you know my parents, or me, you know this is really serious for me. I debated over this for literally over a year. Is it worth it? How BAD do I want a baby? Finally I decided, badly enough to give up my own space, my own food (you underestimate your own grocery habits until you live with someone else), my own decorations, my own cleanliness (a big deal at my parents), and having my husband to myself. It still will be very hard. Especially since it will probably be for at least 2 years. Stupid school again. I still have to work to put Ave through because his stupid difficult program just doesn't let him work more than 15 hours a week. Which is partly why we are moving, we are hoping if it came to it we could live just on his income.... ridiculously poor. So then I will hopefully only work a few days a week, which still is a few too many, but I have to get over that. THIS is the plan. The plan is in place. The plan WILL work. We have been doing construction on my folks' basement for the last couple months. Which means that as soon as we see it through, we can start trying!!!! =) I cannot wait. I cry at baby booties. I heard a newborn cry out in Costco the other day and started bawling. I swear my womb physically aches. Is that possible? I feel like one of the ladies who has been trying and having trouble or had a miscarriage and you have to walk on eggshells in case they fall apart emotionally. I am that woman. And my biggest fear is that after all this.... it will take forever. I will really be a mess then. For all my friends, I am sorry. I am pretty sure I am not pleasant at this time to be around. And we've been so busy trying to hurry and get this built that I haven't seen anyone in forever. And I love my friend dates. =( But hopefully after all this I'll have a rolly little Johnson to show off. YAY!!!!!
P.S. My husband is the best. He's been working his butt off at school and then coming home to do construction all night and weekend. He makes fun because there are those days when I come home from primary or work and say,"Never mind! I never want kids" and then I'll see some cute little baby and go "Ohhh... I want one so bad." What can I say I'm a girl, I'm emotional and tempermental. sp?
Kiss your babies for me.

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Spring Break!

Girls gone wild?! I think not... this spring break for Ave has been pretty mild. He pretty much has worked all week and we haven't gone anywhere fun. I think we're feeling the penny pinching just like everyone else. We did get to go four-wheeling today out past five mile, which is always fun. So that in itself is an adventure. I had thursday and friday off of work (ouch for the paycheck, yay for relaxing) so thursday we pretty much just chilled, took a long walk, and did nothing. It's nice, but I get bored easily. I did bust out my easter decorations, all three of them. =) He goes back to school on monday... boo! but only a couple months left until summer. Ave doesn't go during the summer, he works, so that'll make me feel better. Having more time and money coming in. We are planning our birthday's/anniversay trip, we go on a vacation instead buying gifts every year. We are thinking Vegas again, it's getting away somewhere entertaining and fairly in-expensive compared to say... Californi or hawaii (ahhh.... hawaii... one day, one day)
Hopefully everyone else enjoys their spring weather!

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Hubby Quiz

I found this quiz whilst stalking and though it would be fun since I haven't seen my husband alot the last couple weeks. Stupid school! So here we go I answer these questions and then see how I do.
1. He's sitting in front of the TV, what is on the screen?
Top Gear; Dog Whisperer, or anything on the WAR channel, or some sport
Sports
2. You're out to eat; what kind of dressing does he get on his salad? italian
italian
3. What's one food he doesn't like? lasagna
lasagna
4. You go out to eat and have a drink. His drink would be? Coke
coke
5. Where did he go to high school? American Fork
american fork
6. What size shoe does he wear? 7
8-8.5
7. If he was to collect anything, what would it be? cars and not the model kind
cars
8. What is his favorite type of sandwich? umm... he makes tuna alot. but he eats everything on a sandwich
steak or roast beef...maybe tuna
9. What would he eat every day if he could? stuffing
steak
10. What is his favorite cereal? cookie crisp
cookie crisp
11. What would he never wear? turtle necks
hawaiin shirt
12. What is his favorite sports team? University of Utah does that count?
u of u, real.... dunno
13. Who did he vote for? McCain because it was the lesser of two evils
McCain
14. Who is his best friend? Scottie
Scottie
15. What is something you do that he wishes you wouldn't do? cry for really no reason
eat cereal while driving
16. What is his Heritage? scandinavian
danish, english, iclandic, norwegian
17. You bake him a cake for his birthday; what kind of cake? no idea. chocolate
chocolate, cookies ice cream cake
18. Did he play sports in high school? He wrestled and was on soccer team, still plays soccer
wrestling and soccer
19. What could he spend hours doing? watching tv, riding four wheelers, playing xbox, tinkering with machines... I'm curious to see which one he says first.. hmmm
play video games, surf the web
20. What is one thing you appreciate about him? he is the best man I know, as in good, tries hard, does everything to his fullest
being a man; not a woosy boy, gentleman, could protect

I'm calling it at 100%.... I pretty much had him down with all of them. It was hard to get the answers from him, which I counted on from the beginning as well. hahaha. But I was right, and he knows it.
Cheers!

Thursday, March 5, 2009

My name is Jennifer...

and I am a shopaholic. And yes I really do speak Finnish fluently.


I went and saw this tonight with some girlfriends, and thought it was cute. I really laughed so hard just because I indentified in more ways than one with the character. The poor girl grew up with a mother who dressed her in whatever.... yep. Her parents bought an RV... yep. She froze her credit card... yep. So I have to indentify the problem. Then maybe I can consider fixing it... maybe. Just so you know, the guy in the movie really is a Finn. And I went with my friends I served with, so we were laughing hysterically during the finnish while everyone in the theater was silent. Sometimes it's really awesome to know an obscure language.

"Why do all your excuses have to do with Finland?'

"Because nobody checks on Finland."

Need a chick flick... see it... or 'he's not that into you' also hilarious but a bit racy.